OCD and other things.

I’ve been struggling over the past couple of months. I’m not going to get into the details here, but I feel like evil and temptations have been removing my peace. I need to regain my peace, man! And I think I’m on the road to peaceful recovery.

Balance. That is the thing that gets out of whack sometimes. Being a wife, a mom, a home manager, a writer, a gardener, a chef, a hostess, a friend, and a chauffeur all need my time and attention. I wouldn’t give up any of those positions (well maybe chauffeur and chef), but not giving them all the correct amount of time and attention caused me to become unbalanced, and something had to fall through the cracks.

My OCD for writing pushed other positions to the side for a bit and created havoc. I’m happy to report that God gave me a smack-down. I’m just human, I make mistakes. I am so grateful for the grace that grants me forgiveness though – from friends, family, and God.

God interfered in my chaos when He set me up for a new Bible study, Priscilla Shirer’s “Armor of God.” I knew right away when I saw it advertised by a friend that I needed to sign up, because throughout my life I’ve heard God call me a warrior – even though I did not know what He meant by it.

I have only attended this particular church’s Sunday service once, so I found it a bit strange that God had a specific purpose for putting each one of these ladies at the same table as me. Only the leaders at the table had been in Bible study together before, otherwise everyone that sat down at our table had not previously worked together, and most did not know even know each other.  In three sessions I have felt true love and support from people that have gone through many of the trials that I’ve been facing. I don’t know why I’m still amazed when I see God work so thoroughly, but He still does amaze me.

What I’m learning is that I need to apply God’s armor that he speaks of in Isaiah and Ephesians, to strengthen my resolve when the enemy interferes in my life. The more I grow in relationship with God, the more likely I’m going to be under attack. I need to arm myself with truth – which coincidentally is my word for 2016. Imagine that! I need to keep the gospel of peace, righteousness, salvation, the Word, and my faith strong and accessible. It’s not an easy task, but that’s why God provides support systems and pillars for us.

I am humbly grateful again that the Lord has shown me back to my path.

Here’s wishing peace to you… and peace to me too.